Jobless No More

Yes, I finally managed to obtain a 9 to 5 job.
(well, 8.30 to 5.30 actually).

No longer just sitting and waiting for those long term projects to bring in the mulah.
NOW I get mulah every month :D

Working has made me realise that having a day job is like having a second life.
You are someone at work and someone else at home.

I think this is where people start getting all stressed up.
You're getting twice amount of stress while only retaining the one life to endure it all.

Unless of course, you LOVE your job.
Then there won't be much or any stress at all,
the end of the day would just be another tiring yet fulfilling day.

For now, I can't say whether or not I like my job.
(Still in the training stage).
BUT so far so good.

Late new years wish.

Ok lets see ... Happy new year everyone.
Thanks for all the happy new year wishes and sms.

Kind of sad when,

Dad: Hmmm 49 unread messages, must be happy new year wishes.
Cas: *thinks back* Crap, I only received 4. And the last 2 were from the same person.
Dad: Yeah, kind of shows doesn't it.
Cas: -.-

Very happy when,

Received 2 sms from 2 beautiful ladies then next day.

So in my world,
2 sms from beautiful ladies pwns 49 sms ^^

p.s. Happy Birthday Abbas!

Starting a new computer

Received a new (very old model) laptop,
BUT its got better specs then my old desktop.
Proves just how really old my desktop is.

In light of my current situation of furnishing the new laptop with the relevant softwares.

I thought it'd be a good idea to share it with you guys and girls.

Adobe Reader
To read the oh-so-universal PDF files.

AVG anti-virus
To keep those nasty viruses out

Bitcomet
For downloading ... stuff.

Firefox
For browsing the web.
*I honestly prefer Opera, but Firefox doesn't have those irritating ads.

Live Messenger/Yahoo Messenger/Google Talk
To keep in-touch with your friends

Spybot
To keep those malicious spyware out

VLC Player
To play all your videos
*It even plays broken files ^^

Winamp
To play your music

WinRAR
For zipping and unzipping of your files
*File Compression Software

Good thing about the list is that you can get all of em for free.
Most of them can be found at Download.com

Lightning Crashes

Lightning struck pretty close by the day before yesterday (13/12/006).

Knocked out my access to the internet.
Initially I thought only my network card had fried,
but upon further inspection,
I found out that my modem had partially fried too.

Funny thing.
I can see that it detects the DSL connection but
I can't seem to get it to connect through its ethernet port.

The lightning didn't just knock out my modem and NiC.
It also took out the outside router and even the DVD player.

Of all the expenses I had considered,
natural disasters were one that I overlooked.
It show that you cant really be perfect,
no matter how hard you try.

BUT sometimes ...
just sometimes ...
I believe we do get lucky.

World AIDS Day

Watched the Brit Music Awards earlier.
They had really good performances.
Watching some of these preformances,
I realised something.

Unlike the MTV Awards which had
good shows,
the Brit Music Awards had
good performances.

And you can really see the energy,
if you've been in a concert or
played on stage infront of a supporting audience
then you'd know what i'm talking about.

The exchange of energy between
the performer and the audience,
back and forth,
off and on the stage.
Kind of like sex.
(NOT that i'd know anything much about it)

Yes there I said it, sex.
Its not a vulgar word,
but it IS generally considered a taboo subject,
to most people.
(NO i'm not talking about you perverted people I call my friends)

What I DO know about sex is that safe sex is important.

Officially the World AIDS Day is on
the 1st of December.

A few basic things to know about AIDS,
not that my readers don't already know it,
since you're all so smart and shit.
So this is more of a reminder to myself since I tend to be forgetful.

AIDS
Stands for :
Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome (AIDS)

HIV
Stands for :
Human Immunodeficiency Virus (HIV)

HIV causes AIDS.
AIDS is the collection of symptoms.


p.s. Happy Birthday Davina!

Raya Open Houses

Been to a few raya open houses the past couple of weeks.
Not going to mention any names, cause then some of you might think
"Hey why didn't I get invited ?".
Now that I think of it I probably shouldn't even mention anything about it.

What I can say though is that Saturday was probably one of the worst nights i've had in awhile.

Since i've been especially busy these couple of weeks,
I guess it wasn't that surprising that something gave out.
In this case it was my stomach.

Waking up very early and getting back home very late
finally took a toll on me.

Now usually i'm able to stay up with very little sleep as long as I keep up with proper consumption of food and water.
Somewhere along the way I messed up my cycle of consumption and BAM it hit me.

*Caution, further material might be disgusting*

I puked my guts out. It was like the food that I ate did a 180 on me.
Everything in there had to go and it had to go NOW.
Puked so much and so fast that some of it went out through my nose.

So you can just imagine, trying to blow your nose and puke comes out
and you're constantly smelling puke.
Freaggin disgusting.

Undoubtedly one of the most uncomfortable moments of my life. Not painful, not miserable, not depressing, but uncomfortable.



*End of disgusting material*

I was pretty much T.K.O for remainder of the night and the whole of next day.
Didn't get much sleep cause I kept dreaming of puzzle that kept repeating itself.
It was like 2 teams with the same strength in a tug-of-war,
pulling against each other but not getting anywhere,
so I couldn't really solve the puzzle cause it went in circles,
and it was driving me nuts,

but thankfully after countless hours of waking up in the middle of the morning,
I somehow managed to come up with a way to solve that particular enigma.
or did I? Whatever it is, at least I found my peace.

p.s. Happy Birthday Mei Yan !

- Milestone -

A mere bookmark in time.
Important to some,
a mere moment to the rest.

Getting them gears cracking

The progress of the project i'm handling is going well comparatively.
Kind of glad that its actually moving.
Should be able to reach my personal deadline.

The new supervisor i'm assigned to right now is a whole lot better than the previous one.
At least this one actually shows some supervision and knows what is going on.
The constructive feedback i'm getting is a breath of fresh air compared to the
"Yeah yeah, can can. No problem. Go ahead." or the
"Where to start ? Well just start at the beginning."
bullshite nonsense idiotic statements I used to get.
Plus the new one actually takes the time to reply my emails.

Sheesh.

Yeah well anyway, on a brighter note;
My old mans birthday was today.

He celebrated it by playing a nice relaxing round of golf in the afternoon
before having a nice family dinner with the family.
Haven't gotten him anything yet, but I think there was that subtle hint in between the main course and desert that he wanted an SLK 500 or something within those lines.

pic from www.automotive.com

So yeah, either he was joking or he's gonna need to wait a few more years for me to (hopefully) get to that financial position.

I'll leave you with a quote a friend told me awhile back,


-Self proclaimed expert of providing the heebie-jeebies

p.s. Happy birthday Dad !

Withered away to nothingness

Yes, just a few hours ago my PC air filter decayed away to nothingness.
It just literally perished bit by bit into the drain.
I don't think i've seen anything like it (in real life).
Just like that, it decomposed as I touched it.
It's as if the dust had assimilated itself with the filter and simply took the filter with it as it went on its way (9 its ^^).

Well the incident all started when I decided to fix up my mom's old laptop.
Detesting the idea of using the touch pad, I took out the USB mouse that was attached to my PC and hooked it up to this little thing.

Yes, i'm currently blogging on this new found but actually really old laptop (doesn't even have in-built wifi).
Anyway, as I was patching this old thing up I realised that I needed a connection to the internet.
So again I took from my PC, this time it was the modem, its necessary wires AND the ethernet cable.
Being lazy and all I merely moved the keyboard away and placed the laptop close enough so I don't have to move anything else and just plug it all in.

Then I thought again,
Huh, there goes my downloads, at least for awhile.
Since I was going to leave my PC idle, I thought i'd give it a rest.

So I turned it off.

Happy with the gajillion spy wares and viruses that was eradicated, I started up my PC.
and lo and behold, a sound so creepy ...
Must be that time of the year again.

I opened up the front casing of my PC and there it was.
Dust and lots of it.
It was like a second layer blanketing the bottom front part of the PC like snow across a meadow field.

You can pretty much guessed what happened from then on.



Something that was brought to my attention by a good friend of mine eTiMaGo;

Progress isn't made by early risers.
It's made by lazy men trying to find easier ways to do something.
-Robert Heinlein, Time Enough For Love.

Dance of the Sugar-Plum Fairy

Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky's Dance of the Sugar-Plum Fairy

I don't know what it is about this number that gets me.
I kind of get a chill everytime I hear it after a long time.

Gives of the feeling of there's something really scary out there.
That a sight of it could very well paralyze me in fear,
but at the same time,
there's also something in the back of my mind that tells me that
the scary thing what ever it is,
is actually me.

pic from one of my old calvin and hobbes books I bought when I was a wee lad.

Kind of like comfort in fear, or fear in comfort.
Can't really tell right now.

So anyway, here is what i've gotten so far on trying to put to words of what the song is to me.
Note : Will probably add on to it later.

Like a devious thief lurking through the back alleys of a small town on a snowy night.
Making his way without a sound without a smell avoiding everyone's sight.

All the while not knowing that a mastermind in grey.
Waiting knowing and grinning about something no one can say.

Sitting in his antique recliner staring into the flames dancing to the air burning in a pact.
A thought so sweet yet so dark fluttering through one end of the room to the next.

More than a shadow more than an illusion created by the moonlight so pale.
Created by the flickering of the fire snapping and crackling away.
Thus the snow falls unwaveringly to the ground outside these windowed vale.
Swaying side to side endlessly like an eternity always resting and never astray.

- Lazy Guy

Tried to play it on my blog, but I can't seem to figure out how to play audio on a site.

I could do it if this was on a personal server where I can upload the song itself.

Anyway if you don't know which song i'm talking about you could get it here

or here

or here

or here

Before the night sky

The following are actual sms messages between Window Guy and Doughnut Guy;

WG:
The night falls red
Be nice beneath this

DG:
Red of the night isn't red of the moon
Cometh what might les later nor soon

WG:
Reprecussions of your done days of young
just might fork your tongue

DG:
We all have closets dark and gritty
facing our demons all bent and unlikely

WG:
Demons and angels were once one of the same
and you've no choice but to agree, that was just lame

DG:
Choices are illusions we use as shields
lame it was cause i've had no meals

The whole fiasco above is actually an encoded message of sorts the following is a rough translation of what was going on;

The NIGHT falls red
Be nice benEATh this
WG : Eh tonight wanna go yamcha ?

Red of the NIGHT isn't red of the moon
COMEth what might les LATER nor soon
DG : Tonight ah ? Erm, ok come pick me up abit later, i'm too lazy to drive.

Reprecussions of your "done days of young"
just might FORK YOUr tongue
WG : WTF?! Old man already ah, can't drive ? FcuK you !

we ALL have CLOSEts dark and gritty
facin'G O'ur demons all bent an'D UN'likely
DG : Eh chill la, all the yamcha places in your are are all closed by then. So if you don't like to drive then don't go.

demons and angels were once one of the same
and you've no choice but to agree, that was just LAME
WG : That's a lame reason not to drive -.-"

*Note: Up to this point, hunger and boredom has reached a certain limit so messages now are less "encrypted" and are pretty much straight forward.

choices are illusions we use as shields
lame it was cause i've had NO MEALS
DG : Yeah la, I know. That's because i'm hungry.

Not as smart as I thought

I am appalled !

Being bored at wee hours in the morning, I decided to take an IQ test.
Scored a 110 - Above average.

Took the another IQ test on another site.
Scored a 106 - Above average ... AGAIN !

Figuring 3rd times the charm I went to another site and tried its IQ test
and scored a 116 - 1 point above "above average" ... WTF !

Obviously the time I have been spending dwindling unproductively in front of the computer has rot my brain to some extent.
Maybe I need to watch a little more T.V.

drawing by Cas

Of course, these test were taken in the wee hours of the morning (i.e. 4am). So the next day I decided to try yet another IQ test. and ...

Wohoo ... quite happy albeit it being purely a logical test; but hey ignorance is bliss.

Honestly, I didn't want to post the websites at first, fearing that YOU people might actually try it and might actually score higher, but then again who am I to quell the opportunity of a challenge.

So if you do (and probably will) beat my score,

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, TQ!

and to show my appreciation (for those who did beat my score), below is ...

Better than the next person

I just realised something recently.
This was while doing a survey, rating a close friend of mine on his/her personality.

As I was sifting through the ratings other people have done I noticed that it differed quite considerably from the one I had given.
I even strongly disagreed with some of the traits that were bestowed on him/her.

Then it hit me.
My rating of him/her is based on my personal experience.
I used what I percieved as normal to compare and contrast.
Though he/she might seem like the devil to one person, he/she might very well be a saint to another.

For example, a person who you'd call a pervert would only mean that he/she is more of a pervert than you are, in your own perspective.
The next guy/gal who comes along might view the aforementioned pervert as a totally normal person.

note : The following, in italic, are rantings of a pissed of gamer.

Now that I think about it, this is probably why I get easily irritated by people who brag about having 1337 skillz and end up DYING like a gazillion times doing DUMB things that aren't necessary in the first place.
(solo-ing abnormally humongous monstrosities in a team game and failing, isn't cool nor is it "1337", its just damn dumb)

Cause if you say you're good/pro/gosu/1337 and I happen to be in the same chat room/channel/board, it means that you're saying you're better than I am.
I dont mind if you turn out to be a pro, but if it doesnt turn out that way, then it's just insulting.

With that being said, i'm not one to go bonkers everytime someone says he/she is good, I for one, can tell when a friend is merely joking. In fact I welcome the friendly banter between players, just to spice things up abit. All in the name of good fun of course.

~ vdp2uq-rmrp9l ~

Laziness

What is laziness ?

I believe laziness comes from the lack of motivation.
Some might say that its the lack of discipline that makes one lazy.

Though both can be accepted , I believe that it is more accurate to define laziness as
the lack of motivation.
At least in my perspective.

Cause the way I see it, you can't become un-lazy by being disciplined.
Sure the person might convey un-laziness after being disciplined,
but that's just because he/she was cultured/trained/controlled to comply to
a specific character or pattern of behavior.

To me, it is the motivation that breaks this habit.
I believe that a person with the greatest of motivations will supersede a person with the greatest of discipline.

So, if there was a battle to the death between a motivated Ninja and a disciplined Ninja,
the motivated Ninja would win.
Now that I think of it, being a Ninja is all about the discipline, so scratch that last example.



If there was a battle to the death between a motivated glucose molecule and a disciplined glucose molecule, then why would they be fighting in the first place?

Well the point I'm trying to make may be loosely translated with the following quote;

"No one is willing to die for a vision. People will die for a cause."
-Mr. Menardo "Butch" Jimenez, UP Diliman Commencement Speech April 27, 2003

BUT being lazy isn't all that bad.

For one, it promotes efficiency.

For instance, a lazy person would think of the cheapest, easiest, fastest and least amount of energy taken alternative way to achieve a certain goal.

Thats why we have the remote control.

Because someone was too lazy to get up and change the channels.

Thats why we have the microwave.

Because someone was too lazy to pre-heat the oven or light the stove to heat/cook their food.

Thats why we have bottled water.

Because someone was too lazy to go up the hill and fetch a pail of water

or maybe they did go up the hill but ended up tumbling after. *sniggers*

~ mz8818-twdrny ~

Not quite how I imagined it.

Busy week, started off with meeting up some people to sign some stuff.
Had to wear the monkey suit all day, and boy was it hot.

Being currently unemployed, I dont get to wear the monkey suit often.
Heck I can count the number of times on a single hand.
Its mostly adorned at special occasions like, seminars, board meetings, weddings and oh yes .... the prom.

Can't say that i'm too fond of my prom.
Didn't turn out to be the way I imagined it would be.
Then again, things rarely turn out the way we imagine it.

But ]3\_@rdy ]-[3\_\_ la .....
I ordered turkey breast on parmesan oregano with lettuce, mayo, mustard and black pepper .....




and what do I get ?


turkey breast on parmesan oregano with lettuce, mayo, mustard and black pepper WITH additional tomatoes.





Ate it anyway and moved on ... cause thats life.


p.s. Happy birthday Lok !


~ fh2pn2-xfctyh ~